Since I can remember I’ve liked to know what’s coming next. When I began to use a daily planner about ten years ago, it gave me and my OCD tendencies great joy . . . until now. It came to my attention that my planner had an integral part in creating a very bad habit. I’ve become too worried about the future, about what was next on my to-do list, to enjoy the present. It’s become a habit to say, once I finish this task I can relax. Once the edits are complete on my upcoming release I will be happy. Once I’m done prewriting Lucas’s Story, which is a huge time suck, I will be happy. Once I put up my website and joined Facebook I will be happy. Once I … It was Ella that reminded me that I will always have something that needs to be done. There may not always be a future moment to be happy and relaxed, but I had this moment and I needed to savor it.
So my New Year’s resolution (yes, I do realize it’s a bit late) is to savor. The good and the bad moments. I vow to no longer wait until the task is over to be happy. I will instead savor: each character’s bad decision, when I get a book contract, when my muse goes on vacation without advanced notice, when I hold my first published book in my hands, or when I’m at my day job with a stabbing headache. A reminder is all that it normally takes: bad decisions in the story world lead to great conflict, dreams can come true, rewards are not without struggle, I am alive and I have purpose.
I encourage you, fellow readers, to take a moment, sit back, close your eyes, inhale deeply, and reflect on this moment in your life. It’s yours and no one else’s. Savor it.