Fallen Redemption recently received an awesome five star review on Amazon.
A barrage of emotions always run through me when I read one of my reviews. Normally only four or five. This time, though, it doubled.
Initial reaction: Wait. Is she talking about my book?
Second reaction: A warm flush of pleasure creeps into my cheeks.
Third reaction: This is SO AWESOME.
Fourth reaction: Giggle.
Fifth reaction: Re-read review.
Sixth reaction: Smile fades.
Seventh: Worry leaks the color from my cheeks.
Eighth: Sweat breaks out on my forehead.
Ninth: Hands shake.
Tenth: Possibly may vomit.
Eleventh: Last line of the review reverberates in my head. “I can’t wait to read the next book.” Next book. Next book.
Earlier reviewers of Fallen Redemption remarked on their willingness, and excitement *squee*, to pick up book two. I think this time those words affect me differently because I’ve completed the rough draft of book two and will soon begin the editing phase. The sudden pressure to make this book outstanding, better than the first, is overwhelming.
Mini RB: You should quit now. The rough draft you have sucks ass, big time.
Mini RB II: All rough drafts suck. It won’t suck when you’re finished with edits.
Mini RB: Everyone’s waiting for the second one to come out. You will disssssappoint them.
Mini RB II: Not necessarily. All the same ingredients are there as when you created FR, more actually. Think of your love for the characters. It’s their story. Concentrate on them when you edit. Concentrate on bringing their story to life in the best possible way you can. The rest will fall into place. You’ll see.
Mini RB: It Ssssssuuuuccckkks! Readerssss will hate it. And you!
Mini RB II: Put the readers out of your mind for now. Write the story for you, like you did with Cade and Emma.
As Mini RB’s Smeagol-like prolonged S’s echo in my head (sorry, I recently watched The Hobbit), I struggle not to give into fear. As sweet as Mini RB II is, Mini RB is louder. (And fashionably more dressed, I might add.)
I wonder if a large glass of merlot, or three, will help drowned out Mini RB’s voice. Maybe if I throw in a Max and Erma chocolate chip cookie…
It’s completely ridiculous that a wonderful great review is having this effect. Am I the only crazy one, or has the need to be great for your audience petrified you before?